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Alone


 

Sadness engulfs me, the smell of rain

 the shiver that comes with the cold rush feeds into my soul

I shudder a little, tears freely fall

I’m reminded of every word, every touch, every whisper

I feel naked, used and abused

Reality always did move as it pleased

longing for a touch, a genuine touch

A freeze in time for it to last forever

Dreams rarely come true, heartfelt moments disappear as vapor

 Like a lone tree, with shriveled up leaves, I continue to wallow in my sadness

 moving how the wind pleases, bracing the merciless rain drops

 Nothing to cover my shame, no shadow of color

 I bleed, I bleed with sorrow

How then did life get to this, how then can I rise from the ashes?

 

Bernice Alela

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  1. Anonymous21 October 2023 at 22:57

    For sure in life one is alone mostly

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