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Her Burden

Its started again, she whispers.
The constant reminder that all was not well, he is at it again.
You see she knew of the past lovers knew how his demeanor changed when he'd met an attractive loose girl..she used the term loose lightly..as there was never a time she denied him..unless she was unclean. He had his way any day..yet he still strayed, despite her beauty, her intellect, her poise..he still strayed.
He was the problem., she said in a sigh.
After much scrutiny on her side,he was the issue. She always supported,cared offered all a girl should. What was the one thing she kept close..caution maybe
She was not one to throw it in the wind but when they met..she did, even as she fell in-love with him..she did!
Even for the days he forgot he had her, she stayed put..
In all honesty he wanted an adventure she thought he was all the adventure she needed. He wanted a woman..wasn't she one in her own right?
He wanted the fast and easy but kept her at an arms length..for what?
she  resigned her thoughts and sought to prepare the evening meal for her beau, regardless of his whereabouts through the day.
She wasn't quite as submissive but fought battles she knew she would win..and this one was clearly not in her interest.
She vowed to love and love wholly, she had promised all she had and loved deeply.
It hadn't changed for her..she still did.He promised nought but unexpectedly did hearts and flowers, caught in a web of love instead, he's tenancies  reminded him what he was.
The hurt came after and remorse followed where he was unresponsive to either

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  1. Best one yet? Or one for the books? Either way, this piece is divine 😌

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