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a necessary hiatus.

It has been a long time, years actually since I penned my thoughts down. I think I needed to grow out in some areas and with growth comes pain. pain creeps up on you, and just stays there. for me it came in all areas, mentally, socially emotionally, physically. It was a period in my life where I got hurt emotionally by people I had come to trust, and I had just got some life changing news. To be real honest I was alone. So I hurt deeply, growth and maturity comes with rediscovery of self. It took me a long time to just let it happen in order for me to heal.
It took a toll on me and I was on the verge of depression, bitterness and i couldn't understand how my life had turned upside now. Time does make it easier and i have given myself a lot of that.
The important thing for me was to move along with the change and be able to adjust and now that I know that, I adjust accordingly everyday as change truly is inevitable.
So I am now a mom,this is one of the reasons I've been on a break. Its hard settling in to that new role especially being young and alone.You have moments of doubt and failure and can't tell whether there is a light at the end of the tunnel, the reason I pulled through is because of my family which  was and is my biggest support system and now guardians to my little boy, he has lots, which makes me grateful and pity him at the same time as he will have a lot of people to answer to, if he ever gets himself in trouble.
One of the things am very grateful for is the family I've been blessed with. Love in its purest form.

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  1. rose21 May 2019 at 11:21

    lovely, you're doing great mama.

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  2. Unknown15 May 2020 at 00:25

    Keep writing my dear. I strive to describe my emotions and thoughts as you have done...

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  3. Unknown20 December 2020 at 23:16

    You can do it. Hang in there we are with you

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  4. Anonymous23 February 2023 at 21:04

    The strength of a woman

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