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Fighting demons

Silence fills me,
these four walls cant accomodate me,
not my creativity,
or my ability,
i hear the quiet movement of sand through the hour glass
and the footsteps outside the electrical controlled doors,
they told me i needed help,
for what? i kept asking
i simply took the powdery substance
they called it cocaine,
i say its their imagination
tis my pain and gain,
'her love left', they claim
i was always alone, i proclaim
they just didnt realize,
family equated to stone,
so cold,
doctors say am unstable
feelings and proper speech, am unable,
flight, i ran
from the strange people in lab coats,
the nurses and their hats,
i stepped in the dark alley, the street lights adjacent to the highway,
illuminated stray dogs on the hunt,
put a scary chill in me,
thinking it would wash the fear away..
i sniff the white powder,
i felt it coming... grey
and i figured i wouldn't see the sunrise any more
                                   bernice

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