As I wake up and my eye lids flutter, I rub my eyes trying to remember the dream I just had but my memory fails me. I stare out the window and I see a clear blue sky and mummur to myself how beautiful the day would be. I leave my bed and walk to the shower not bothering to say hi to my family first. I dress and leave the house to my daily routine. I don't bother to say a prayer of thanks or even protection, yet I call Him my father. I don't sit to think of the many times he helped me safely across the road, for He is my king and Saviour, He is the giver of life and the many times I forgot to thank you oh lord Am saying it now thank you for waking me up for I know its not the alarm clock or the buzzing in the town but you.... I give you praise coz your king.
It has been a long time, years actually since I penned my thoughts down. I think I needed to grow out in some areas and with growth comes pain. pain creeps up on you, and just stays there. for me it came in all areas, mentally, socially emotionally, physically. It was a period in my life where I got hurt emotionally by people I had come to trust, and I had just got some life changing news. To be real honest I was alone. So I hurt deeply, growth and maturity comes with rediscovery of self. It took me a long time to just let it happen in order for me to heal. It took a toll on me and I was on the verge of depression, bitterness and i couldn't understand how my life had turned upside now. Time does make it easier and i have given myself a lot of that. The important thing for me was to move along with the change and be able to adjust and now that I know that, I adjust accordingly everyday as change truly is inevitable. So I am now a mom,this is one of the reasons I've been on a ...
Hey Bernie,
ReplyDeleteFinally you have began to write! I am so proud of you and I have enjoyed reading every word that you have penned. Make it often dear, one day we will compile it all in a best seller book :-) Keep it up, will you?
sure will :)
ReplyDeletebeautiful! u always had your ways with poems!
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