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Life in color

In the words of Pharrel Williams, 'money can't buy you happiness but happy can get you money', As i was going through some updates i stumbled on this and it got me thinking..in more ways than one that it does make sense. We are so busy trying to attain success, love, happiness, picture perfect dreams and movie lives that we forget to actually enjoy our time and create life rather than a living. You see, when we just relax and embrace the feeling of what we are doing and be happy we can achieve so much more than we had bargained for. For the longest time i did not think this statement could be so meaningful, but it covers my six months of 2014. I had just finished a short course i was doing in college last year and thought to myself, why not take a year off school and see what happens, i guess you'd say i was crazy back then :) But i was seeing life pass me by and there all these things am yet to do and experience so i took the challenge. I added a twist an promised myself not to get into any relationship for sometime, (i had said a year but six months works, right?) Okay, so from just taking a break, i have learned more things about myself in these few months than i ever have in, well forever. I had put a few questions and goals to ask my self each time on my progress. And i have met so many people and made good friends of some of them, I let go of one sided friendships and decided to really work on being a good friend to others. It has been an exciting journey. I have drank more coffee than i can handle, danced like no one is watching and laughed till i cried, and slowly embracing each emotion as it comes, as they are part of life, tears have been there and bad days but in these times i have known who has my back. Its like i now see life in color. Happy brings everything in view, and shows that you are not afraid to enjoy each and every situation that comes your way. 'can't nothing bring me down' Cheers, Bernice

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